AlexisAriel

So after being completely inactive on my own account for almost six month [yeeeesh] due to the successful-ness of my career, the practicing to finally be ready to go from "junior stylist" to "beautician" at the salon I work at, personal situations, holidays. I think im ready to return; in a better mind set. My life all in all has been something I can not really complain. So I'm ready to continue to study and practice my art =] Hope you all are excited. :heart:

God, I know it's REALLY a bad idea for me to be writing a journal, at 4:56 in the morning. I know, or hope, it's probably nothing, but yet again, I'm going to a severe anxiety attack... I've been laying in my bed for the past three hours, trying to sleep, no T.V., no computer, no lights, no sounds; everything i need for a peaceful night sleep, but no, I was lying awake in my bed, trying to hold back tears that make no sense. I having such a panic attack, for no reason, complete paranoia of people and things... Which doesn't make any sense to me, nothing is wrong... nothing is weird, but my own mentality... I dont want to be mentally ill and

Which is something I can't do D:< I have no voice at the moment, and haven't had it since last saturday. My friends, including ~fala1385 (https://www.deviantart.com/fala1385) and :iconanimatED: decided to go to Adventureland, and me being a loud person to begin with, went on two rides, one i love, the other, eh, not so much [but i still enjoyed it] The Frisbee [being the one i love] and The Pirate Ship [not so much] I scream, whether im enjoying it or not, I still fuckin' scream, at the top of my lungs. Now theres no exaggeration in that statement cause it's been like... 6 days, and I STILL don't have my voice back, take it it's a little better than it was, I still can't re